Monday, 18 July 2016

Monster

He said he had no hope,
No light at the end of his tunnel,
Nothing to live for,
No reason for existence,
He said he did not know why he used to do what he did,
Why he is the monster he views himself to be.....

Friday, 1 July 2016

Talent without Discipline


Talent without discipline is like an octopus on roller skates. There's plenty of movement, but you never know if it's going to be forward, backwards, or sideways.


- H. Jackson Brown Junior 

Brick Girl

She never writes about things of the heart; this is just an attempt.


They say you never really plan to fall for someone,
That is why they use the word fall when it comes to love,
No-one plans to fall.

When you find yourself reading and re-reading a text someone sent,
When you find yourself editing every word before you click send,
When you find yourself hoping that person calls,
You're staring at your phone too long..waiting for it to blink-new text message alert,

When you find yourself rehearsing how you will say hello to him when you meet up,
Rehearsing the position of your hands when you two meet up and sit down for coffee,
when you hope the height of the seat and table you rehearsed with is the same with one at the coffee shop,
When you find yourself happy for no reason.


When you think you would give up some things you thought you valued,
When you feel you give up your life for that person.

When time passes and you still feel the same,
When you hold on to the feeling hoping it does not fade,
When you reward yourself for finally being brave enough to let your heart settle,
Being brave to allow your heart to love,
Being brave enough to allow yourself to be like everyone else who is happy with someone they are not related by blood.

When a time comes and you realise it is all a fantasy,
That you barely know the person and have no idea if they feel the same way,
When you judge your heart for rushing into conclusions and fantasies,
When you are about to completely give up and notice the person seems interested,
When the thrill fades because your heart was ready for rejection and this looks like it might go on,
When the interest is lost because you are used to being played,
When you realise you are damaged and what you thought was your heart was your emotions and feelings playing games with you,
When you realise loving a particular person and commitment really isn't your thing.
When you settle for that conclusion and you build back the walls you thought you had the courage to let someone break.

Thursday, 14 April 2016

Probably for Overthinkers




Afraid,
Broken,
Lost,
That is how she feel sometimes,
Behind the face of perfection she put on at times,
Behind the beautiful dress she wears advertised in New York times,
Behind the image of a woman in control of how she reacts to things all times,
The woman who never lets her emotions spill over, she is always always all smiles
The woman who  is stable inside.

Behind all that,
Days come when she feels like nothing means a thing,
She gets a little bit too hard on herself for nothing
Maybe not a little,
Maybe a lot harder than the weight these words are carrying.
She overthinks every little choice she wants to make,
Thinks about the choices before it is even made,
How many spoons of sugar for her tea,
Should the phone be on the bed while charging or maybe it's better on the table,
Should she have nodded or simply said yes in her response,
Nodding seems  a bit rude,
Or maybe it is OK,
But why not put the effort and say yes or OK instead of simply using actions,
She isn't deaf or dumb,
She can say yes or no,
She has a voice,
Is it about her or the other person, does the other person even care?
Did they even notice she nodded her head?

And what about that time she said yes to a date,
Maybe she should have said no,
Maybe she should not have put herself in a situation where she would be asked out anyway,
The most beautiful girls are like apples,
the ones up above on the highest branch of the apple tree,
they are not reached easily by pickers and they end up thinking something is wrong with them,
Yet all along,
They are simply the best!
She is NOT supposed to be asked out!
She is a good apple, high above the trees!
Lonely but she knows her worth!

Maybe she shouldn't even be putting down her thoughts in writing,
The best people in life are the most secretive,
Or the introverts,
Maybe the best are extroverts,
Maybe it is OK to put down her thoughts.
She is no-longer aware of who she is,
Maybe is trying to find Identity and the more she seeks it,
She loses herself.
She probably needs to relax,
It is probably never that serious,


But who cares anyhow.

Sunday, 27 December 2015

Sinful Poet

So much to express,
That I supress, 
Every word every text,
For fear of Seeing it black as 
coal,
My naked soul so cold,
My nasty mind so bold,
My wicked side re-told,
Through paper and pen Re-
born,
My mind exposed,
As the sophisticated sinful 
poet.

My Name is Africa

My name is Africa:


A beauty to look at
From East to west
Reaching through vast land and sea
Incredible wildlife,
Continuous amazement to those who visit me
All you've ever wanted I have

Wednesday, 22 January 2014

ONE MINUTE AT A TIME

Sometimes we lack peace of mind,
We feel lost and unsettled,
We feel like every thing is happening with us in mind
To push us off balance,
 To frustrate us,
To make us unhappy,
and we forget to live every moment in time,
simply rushing and in our heads only thoughts of
the regrets of things we never did or did,
the hurts of the past
or simply thoughts of future plans,
completely choosing to deny the present the recognition and attention it deserves.
And we are in this persistent cycle of
 one unhappy minute to another,
Bound by the laws of a sick routine,
And the worst part is...
we don't know exactly what we subject ourselves to when we don't live the moment right before us.

How beautiful would it be
if we chose to breath the air and take in the moment with all with have
to give the person we are talking to all the attention when they speak
To think through what a teacher is saying the moment they speak
how peaceful would it be
if we tried to free our minds of all worry and simply lived the present
Hard as it may seem
There is nothing wrong with trying
Am inclined to mention God because He is the basis of my beliefs and all that I am
And when you give a try to something and take the first step
He most definately moves in